Angry at God...

Have you ever been “angry” with God? Not just angry, but really angry, like pissed off? Im pretty sure we all have. I know I have. I recently was reminded about the anger I had towards God before I came to know Him on a personal level. It was pretty strong to say the least. People say that we’re not supposed to get angry with him, that he’s God, hes perfect, and its in our best interest not to get angry with him. But regardless, I truly was angry with him, and I let him know it. I started thinking about it, and I realized that I had a bunch of unanswered questions about that time in my life, and really wanted to know those answers. So the other night, I brought it back up with Him...



-"God, why did you let that happen to me? My life was going good, I was happy, everything was going to my plan… and all of a sudden you turned my life upside down, and all my dreams were shattered right in front of me. I thought you wanted me to be happy. Why did you do that to me?"

-You have the belief that happiness is a life of “trouble free” living, and because you had the wrong perception of me, when trials came your way, you felt that I had failed you, or let you down because you were not happy with your situation. Happy doesn’t mean you’ll own a $100,000 car, live in a mansion, be attractive, popular, and never have to worry about satan sneaking up on you. No. Happy is the man that suffers for righteousness. Happy is the man that endures. Not once did I ever tell you that happy is the guy that has it "all together”. You must understand that your concept of happiness is conditional, that as long as everything is going the way YOU want it to go, you’re happy. It’s not that I dont care or that im not listening. But because you expect me to perform according to the expectations you have in your selfish mind, you develop the wrong concept of me. And because you have the wrong concept of me, and because i have not performed to your selfish expectations, you get angry with me causing your concept of me to fail. And then that causes you to get angry with me again. it’s a continuous cycle of negative emotions.

-"Ok, that makes sense… buuuuut, it still doesn’t answer the question of “why” you put me through it all. Did you do it because I had the wrong perception of happiness?"

-No, to build your character.

-"My character? Seriously? That’s so cliché God, c’mon."

-Yes, your character. Your character are the things that form you as a man of God, your nature, your integrity, and your identity. You suffered through everything because I had to build your identity, so that when people see you today, they say "I want to know that man", "What is it in his life that shines through?". So that when you confront the devil, he’ll say with fear in his eyes, "Here comes a man of God, he has come to destroy us…". That’s what I was doing to you, I was working on your identity, but you couldn’t understand that, and you got angry.

-"Well, what else was I supposed to do? i didnt know..."

-Have faith.

-"I do have faith!"

-No, you have selective faith.

-"What the heck is that?!?!"

-So many times you talk about Faith and say that you have it. But you only have it as long as you can see a possible ‘way out’, but as soon as you do not have sight of something you want, you get angry with me.

-“……”

-I have everything under control and the proof is in the endurance of your character after you pass the test. you may not be able to see it now… but just wait. Something amazing is coming for you.


Ok, so after that conversation, I gotta say that I felt pretty stupid. When we get angry with Him, its really because we don’t understand why, or what he is doing in our lives. We try to have God work within our own expectations, and when he does not meet our expectations, we get angry with him and begin to blame him. No matter what it is your going through, all I can say is keep praising him. He will make straight the crooked paths that lie before you, and he makes all things work together for our good. He is building up your character for what is to come next in your life, and its something amazing. Its something abundantly above and beyond anything you could ever hope for, dream or imagine. it may already be right in front of you...